Sunday, May 23, 2004
for all who do not want to know about what I'm thinking, who don't want to read something negative or don't want to hear "complaining,"; refrain from reading this post, please. thank you.
fuck. the past 30 hours have been nothing short of retarded. I don't know what it is; the fact I go to Sam-de-Cham, that I'm not the most conventional guy on the block, that I'm picky, etc. etc., and I know this sounds "sad" but I'm fucking bored! everyone's off to Mars or having an orgy somewheres all weekend, and here I am mostly at home. call it lack of planing or lack of popularity, but holy fuck! ça fait pas le bon sens! I mean not to seem like a loser, but since saturday morning I've done next to nothing, had almost no social interaction, and holy fuck! I'm not the kind of person to say "OK, let's relax all weekend at home" - man, I need to get out and DO STUFF! SEE PEOPLE!! this could be the boredom speaking but I hate this! I just don't get it... i dont look like a sick old hobo climbing out of a garbage can, I have half-decent social skills, I'm not heavily addicted to any dangerous substances and yea! what the fuck??? it seems that it shouldn't be like this!
and yes, I do see "the other side of the fence", that i'm being "conceited" and "weird" about the whole thing, but fuck that. I mean, honestly, I have at best one tentative plan for tomorrow and that's it, and fuck......yeeeeea never mind, its kind of a mistake for me to be saying this here. yea.
joel.
fuck. the past 30 hours have been nothing short of retarded. I don't know what it is; the fact I go to Sam-de-Cham, that I'm not the most conventional guy on the block, that I'm picky, etc. etc., and I know this sounds "sad" but I'm fucking bored! everyone's off to Mars or having an orgy somewheres all weekend, and here I am mostly at home. call it lack of planing or lack of popularity, but holy fuck! ça fait pas le bon sens! I mean not to seem like a loser, but since saturday morning I've done next to nothing, had almost no social interaction, and holy fuck! I'm not the kind of person to say "OK, let's relax all weekend at home" - man, I need to get out and DO STUFF! SEE PEOPLE!! this could be the boredom speaking but I hate this! I just don't get it... i dont look like a sick old hobo climbing out of a garbage can, I have half-decent social skills, I'm not heavily addicted to any dangerous substances and yea! what the fuck??? it seems that it shouldn't be like this!
and yes, I do see "the other side of the fence", that i'm being "conceited" and "weird" about the whole thing, but fuck that. I mean, honestly, I have at best one tentative plan for tomorrow and that's it, and fuck......yeeeeea never mind, its kind of a mistake for me to be saying this here. yea.
joel.
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